Manic fragments & "A black hole hiding"

time fragments

I know I am beyond the line

When I stare through myself

through my own reflection

my eyes refuse to blink

objects are placed around me

at some point in another life time
I put them there

I think........

I must have done

.....................

I need someone to hear

oh the horrible nights

when we speak

my voice deceives you

Mania is a black hole hiding in my smile

Thank god no one understands

and so I write

Mania overflows to golden waterfalls of tears

providing a little peace

this is amazing

this is ill

You cannot see

maybe one day you will see

MANIC - eyes stare back empty

like eyes that have seen too much

these eyes see too much at once

dead fish eyes

unblinking and wide

Sometimes there is too much of me

I attempt to reduce myself

But the busyness of life vibrates around me

steel bees vibrating in my metal skull

like nails in a tin can.

.....

I am little pieces of myself
fragmenting
Mania does this to me
my memory world shatters
like dribbles of glass
through a heart-shaped sieve

Little pieces of me
come one day
across little pieces of
you

A blanket of time
wraps over my head
I've lost
where I said
I should be
I drag myself from one
place to another place
one state to another state
I can't see
without
I'm lost
in my own
head.

1-11-2006