Everything beautiful is true, the rest is lies!

2005 (or earlier?)

Was I lied to again?

Have I been lied to by my heart?

I was proven wrong again

Everything right is torn apart.

Oh moonlit sky,

show me what I really knew.

What did I find

when I found that I love you?

Is it all lies, all emotion that I feel?

Please show me some love that is real.

Am I all alone again,

or are you always in my heart?

It's hard to tell the difference when

my mind or soul seems torn apart.

Am I just too much,

for you to handle?

You are the wick of my emotional candle.

Is life all wrong,

or is it just my eyes?

Everything beautiful is true

the rest is lies

Oh perfect dawn,

bring me something that is real

Give solid form to all the wonders that I feel

You're not alone, as long as you have dreams

Life, is purely as amazing as it seems

You will always be beautiful to me.

Is life wonderful,

or is it just my eyes?

Everything beautiful is true

the rest is lies!

You will always be beautiful to me...

SLEEPNOWTHINKLATER

7.4.2000

Sleep now, think later
A blanket of unconsciousness
Descends over me.
My weak frame is giving in.
My mind has already gone
Sitting in standby waiting for the revolution.

Give me an identity
Give me a mind
Wind up my clockwork engine someone.
Pull off my strings
Delete the expectations
Set me out to roam free.

I need my sleep,
I feel so weak,
I've held it together as long as I can
You've been been letting me go
Not pushing me away
But none of that matters now anyway.

My life is one big ache
But it no longer matters
I'm starved of happiness
But it no longer matters
I'm so alone
It no longer matters
My body is falling to pieces
Yet it no longer matters
My mind did long ago.

Mine

A poem is a waste of time
just making up a silly rhyme.
Although the truth is, I have found,
that phrases follow you around.
They leave your soul mosquito bitten,
And will not rest 'til they've been written.
Pencil marks upon a page
tell a story of this age.
It's in your head, so write it down
drive the worries out of town.
Move it out and clear your head
then when you're done, just go to bed.

2000